Where I came from, drinking and using drugs was the norm. Everybody did it, which is why I started at age 14. I’d smoke every day and then drink on the weekends. I was always a good kid and an honor roll student, but eventually I got tired of being the good child.
I tried pills for the first time when I was 19 and that’s when things got bad. I had a three-year-old son at the time and could immediately see the change in him as well. He went from being a very happy, outgoing little boy to a very quiet and reserved one. When I crossed that line and turned into a different person, I saw him cross that line and turn into a different child.
A year before I came to Healing Transitions, I literally lost everything. In just one week, I lost my mom, my house, and was in the process of losing my kids. I didn’t want to live anymore but I was too afraid to die. That’s when I knew I needed help. I knew I was going to die because people around me were dying. It was too much for me to handle.
My caseworker explained to me the steps I needed to take to be around my kids again and I was ready. Healing Transitions took me in immediately. When I first arrived, it was hard for me to admit I was homeless and had a problem. As I processed my situation, I started seeing people around me who were happy all the time. I thought it was fake but realized rather quickly that it was genuine. And I desperately wanted it. For years, I couldn’t do anything without being under the influence. But after my first week at Healing Transitions, I turned a corner. I could finally sweep and mop a floor without getting high, and I was so grateful for that feeling.
I was at Healing Transitions for 16 months before I completed the program and moved into an Oxford House. Six months later, my daughter came to live with me which was much more difficult than I expected, even though it was all I wanted. Thankfully, my roommates, Jamie and Jasmine, were there to help. We all lived together and they showed me how to be a mother again.
A few months later, Healing Transitions connected me with Passage Home. They helped me get a house with my name on the lease which was a huge step for me. During that time, my son came to live with us, and I met my fiancé. As I worked hard to keep my sobriety and continue to practice the principles I learned at Healing Transitions, all of these wonderful things fell into place.
My life today is great! There are still hard days, but throughout this recovery journey, I haven’t once thought about not wanting to live. I face new obstacles every day, but I try to take them with grace and remember that God already has things worked out for me.
We just moved into our new home. I get to pay rent. I have my kids who are beautiful human beings and great children. I’m engaged in their lives, I’m in school and I’m working again. Healing Transitions helped save my life and turn me into the woman I am today!